A Little Black Book Passage Contained within a dream The surge being forced upon the shell Lean into the night Bear the changing burden Compelled Crawl on your shame Trample on the past It's before you The black sphere The cave of time The scar of solitude The passage http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,559458#msg-559458 Mon, 20 May 2013 14:57:40 -0700 Phorum 5.2.7 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1375199#msg-1375199 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1375199#msg-1375199 pieceofnothing Writing Sat, 26 May 2012 12:38:58 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1375147#msg-1375147 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1375147#msg-1375147

Exit.

Ok. Now is the time. I have been posting on this little thread of mine for almost 3 years now. It has been a superb experience of revealing, sharing and checking myself. I have learned and earned. All things such as this must end however. I have moved forward. There have been tough dark spots, sure..but many who have stuck it out in that time were always lighting a way for those times. Closing the chapter, evolving, breaking through...and arriving. This is my path. Thank you for your attention.

sentient02970

Now I know, exactly [who] I am.]]> sentient02970 Writing Sat, 26 May 2012 09:42:29 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1370497#msg-1370497 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1370497#msg-1370497 sithlordjp Writing Wed, 09 May 2012 18:30:09 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1370410#msg-1370410 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1370410#msg-1370410

Undercurrents

In sun streaked neighborhoods
flocking green parks
childlike at play

Respect of peers
Allowance of fears
shared and collected
in the toils and smiles.

These full streets
in exchanges and thoughts
awaken and borne of
life
blessings
attuned.

A sense of the infinite
unending feel and momentum
without care of time
or threat.

And so it came

after the unrelenting sweep
of rumble currents
pulled puppets of what wasn't
anchored.

Hauled off
all that was
unaware
unguarded
unprepared.

These leavings of the terrible tide
were all but barren
gaping holes of a
death drone.

We the departed
are left but this
to ponder.

This abandoned shell
a crypt of memory
crumpled blackened gray postcard
of what was
and could never be.

Ishinomaki weeps.]]> sentient02970 Writing Wed, 09 May 2012 12:14:23 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1369041#msg-1369041 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1369041#msg-1369041 sentient02970 Writing Fri, 04 May 2012 20:15:23 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1366081#msg-1366081 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1366081#msg-1366081 sentient02970 posted:
Bless

May the feet land lightly
May your breaths be full
and steady
May the sun warm your skin lovingly
May the breezes blow you gently
May the hollow parts of you heart
fill with this spirit

and remember this too is a path
where you are loved.

beautiful... very inspiring.]]> sithlordjp Writing Mon, 23 Apr 2012 10:38:07 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1366080#msg-1366080 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1366080#msg-1366080 Bless

May the feet land lightly
May your breaths be full
and steady
May the sun warm your skin lovingly
May the breezes blow you gently
May the hollow parts of you heart
fill with this spirit

and remember this too is a path
where you are loved.]]> sentient02970 Writing Mon, 23 Apr 2012 10:33:19 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1365500#msg-1365500 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1365500#msg-1365500

Field Effect

Re-tracing coordinates
and paths
of the winds and worries
of particulates.

Multitudes of dodges
and slips
the courses between
at speeds without measure.

Within the chaos
among the flurry
all we can see
are errors.

The gentle vibrations
of sway and swing
in fields and waves
dancing.

A missed zero.
A dropped decimal.
A variable unconsidered.

A release of
alarming birds to flight
they synchronize yet diverge
the freeing music
of winds.

By then it's done
and the moment is lost
to numbers and algorithms
records and tallies breezed by.

None of them bring me peace
Nor will they ever explain
the messages overlaid
in electric tides.

Attuned
Magnified
Then suddenly silenced.

The field is quiet
without you.]]> sentient02970 Writing Fri, 20 Apr 2012 08:15:59 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1363631#msg-1363631 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1363631#msg-1363631 Pale Light Of Waking

Words deconstructed
to ideas ridiculous
faltering to absurdity
transiting.

Neuron trickery
pattern picked
then dissolved
flashed and flared
ignition.

Appearances bring feeling
light of fear
dark of hollow thought
without decision
desire.

Familiar twisted to strange
awareness crescendo
cut off switch hovering
pales.

Feeling the eyelids open
and night's sweat surround
I waken to the wonder
harmonic dream

no sound.]]> sentient02970 Writing Thu, 19 Apr 2012 12:37:59 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1363469#msg-1363469 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1363469#msg-1363469 Hang The Moon

Drip chaos swing
Silver circlet
Reflecting light
Without warmth

There it hangs
Between reason and
reality
Cold, dead

this conversation silence

pointless]]> sentient02970 Writing Wed, 18 Apr 2012 20:04:37 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1363297#msg-1363297 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1363297#msg-1363297 Rogue1 Writing Wed, 18 Apr 2012 12:03:31 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1363294#msg-1363294 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1363294#msg-1363294 They Were Yellow Roses

Ropes and might
lowering you slowly
inching into
the clay and moss

roots and rocks.

No one could look up
No one wanted to see
And yet here we were
putting you there.

A random cough
a whispered weeping
and the silence of winds
blew the leaves over the stones.

But before we all walked away
to leave the shoveling
and the patting of earth
to close your chapter..

His little hands extended out
from inside his tiny black suitcoat
and extended to drop
the roses on your sleeping box.

With petals gently landing and falling
to the earth under your resting spot
the yellow satin of tears descending

crying
for you
everlasting.]]> sentient02970 Writing Wed, 18 Apr 2012 12:00:16 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1362353#msg-1362353 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1362353#msg-1362353 As The Day Is Long

Last breath of prayer
dancing with words
embrace beams of color
allow the light.

The chilled droplets
left in the glass
fingers wet
hand warming.

Gazing across the field
the clouded distance
and the sinking sun
brings quiet.

A pause upon
the extent of day
and the wonder of night
air cooling.

This I know to be
am sure of sight and mind
in heart arisen
the chance

the hope

of remaining days to come.]]> sentient02970 Writing Sat, 14 Apr 2012 15:11:14 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1327165#msg-1327165 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1327165#msg-1327165 Empath

Warm guiding hand
gently pull
afford direction
allow me to sense this path.

Day open to
discover
the shine of
celebratory suns.

Eternal in orbit
all spins
relating and
retaining our footholds.

Your head turning
the invite
attuned to the wonder
of harmony in thought.

So deep in your eyes
the carelessness of light.
So far beyond the universe
of time aware.

The tears and sparks of joy
flare and fade
in the staccato of novas.

I learn
I appreciate
and forever take
a piece of you

with me.]]> sentient02970 Writing Mon, 12 Dec 2011 10:51:08 -0800 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1235663#msg-1235663 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1235663#msg-1235663

Lucifer's Prayer

We happy maggots.
Territory.
Damnation.
Apocalypse.

Forged in the seething jealousy.
Orphaned.
Denied.
Aborted.

Closing the gates.
Exclude.
Exiled.
Unfavored.

How dare you?
Dictator.
Hypocrite.
Neglecting.

Fit for a crown of thorns.
Betrayer.
Sacrificial.
Undead.

I remain defiant in purpose.
Shame.
Liar.
Ruiner.

Forever defiling your creation.
Temptress.
Seduction.
Spoiler.

Until genesis becomes undone.
Alpha.
Omega.
Inverted.

nemA]]> sentient02970 Writing Tue, 29 Mar 2011 11:29:13 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1235188#msg-1235188 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1235188#msg-1235188 Relics

Sunlight rips across the surface
longitude by longitude,
creating a sense of time.
An illusion of happenings

In some silent torture
the closing of eyelids;
denial of sense
touching a cold, numb tomb.

Burns and betrayals
exposing the iron core.
A cloak of steam rises
from its singed shining skin

Like breaking away from a coma
everything floats back to the center.
Allowances
Memories

The determinant change
The core of being
The second death
The slip of rebirth

All for the fate of
dreams colored by drink.
All sculpted from
the clay of life's burdens.

These relics:

Sacred temples and
abandoned hopes
fall in shapes softening,
landing on love's locked chambers.]]> sentient02970 Writing Mon, 28 Mar 2011 10:20:25 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1224399#msg-1224399 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1224399#msg-1224399 Maybe Mardi Gras

Columned chambers hiding
stone statues of delicate
memories.

The tombs of kings
with toys of gilded sorrow are
tied down with the strapping
of tailored flesh.

Your hollow electric mind node
disconnects with sudden anxiety
from forms of history
bellowed inside caverns of old.

We sleep the child's dream
soft bedding of hope and faith
with security of forever blankets
time ceasing the beats.

Filth and foam
Bins and bones

The collective adornments
for the party in weekends remaining
tarnish a bit when you breathe
when you fail.

I could walk for miles
forgetting the joy of tame
being.
I could reach for furlongs
clutching at swaying hoops barely
formed.

I'll continue to ponder
the direction.
And build a ball of regret
out of brine nets.

Hey, I say to the marching band lead.
Which way to the end of the story?
How far to the fork in the tale?
Not speaking?

Not for empty streets on
maybe Mardi Gras day.
Not for bystanders.
Not for me.]]> sentient02970 Writing Thu, 03 Mar 2011 12:26:20 -0800 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1219459#msg-1219459 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1219459#msg-1219459 The Foundations of Faith

In my liquid sense
and borrowed bravado
I missed the cue.

All of those handholds
weight-bearing supports
tension wires
fall slack in the sudden.

It wasn't a case of harm
or rejection
or abandonment.

It was a simple act of
carelessness.
An almost ignorant passivity,

allowing the grit of
betrayal
the marks of
heart trampling

to leave scabs on the remains
of my trust.

So I fall and descend,
left without a caring moment.
All but the obsidian hope
of seeing you struggle in the slow drown
of your force-fed guilt.

All but these cracked
and decaying rocks in snow.
The remaining foundation
in our house of faith.

Not the way or intent
given in this way
of a kiss upon your cheek.]]> sentient02970 Writing Tue, 22 Feb 2011 07:01:27 -0800 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1203522#msg-1203522 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1203522#msg-1203522
i love it!
as always you put so much feeling in there]]> arwencat8 Writing Fri, 28 Jan 2011 08:24:43 -0800 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1203198#msg-1203198 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1203198#msg-1203198

Through The Ambient

That low frequency hum,
static and steady,
in your ears
coating your mind,

is a background distraction,
an annoyance of time and place,
a digital array of confusion
to cover and hide this weak ping.

Instant signals,
wireless ware,
multitude of streams,
array of channels:

All of it the veil of what is
and how it is to be.
Hooked in and
blotted out.

But through this noise,
across this tender cadence of time
I stretch these words;
reach out and call to you

that there is value in
Smiles,
that there is magnificence in
Touching,
that potential in human contact
Lingers.

As a mother quickly pulls her child
to breast
at birth
A kiss touches forehead,

that breeze across the oceans,
reaches your face,
calms your spirit,
speaks through the din.

In this,
with old words,
these markings of mind frame,
I call to you.

Hold on to your silent spirit.
Unplug from the grid.
Know what it is to be
and what it is to sense all

in the ambient drift of life
passing you by.]]> sentient02970 Writing Thu, 27 Jan 2011 09:32:52 -0800 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1203195#msg-1203195 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1203195#msg-1203195 A Sensing

You exit the universe
Orange embers trailing
A ghastly apparition
Of emptiness left behind

My remaining memory
A pile of ruined statues
Broken and barren
The pale eye of somber

Grief satiates the scorned
In fretted dance steps
Spinning, tumbling to bow
Before the faded and forlorn

In you I can recognize
A dream in facets and shades
Of a favorite time
A blue sky within reach

As fire of stars cool
Darkness fills the space
And a quiet is allowed
To shade all sins

This calm in balance
Yet broken in spirit
I have a chance to note
A sense of you on the passing breeze

As I turn up my collar
Keeping the chill at bay]]> sentient02970 Writing Thu, 27 Jan 2011 09:25:41 -0800 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1171972#msg-1171972 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1171972#msg-1171972

Declaration

The drowning silence
And paralysis
No longer holds me

The dark recesses of self hurt
Can't trap me
Or restrain me

You self hater
You deceiver
You soul-taker

I declare this day

A closer sense of me
A breakthrough attempt
A resolute rebirth

The lies of heart
Cannot resist the honest feeling
Sound of breaking chains

The past shame
Has no magnitude
Stutters out the shock waves

You life lover
You free runner
You husband - father

I remain this day

I count for everything
I mean something real
I throttle the power of now

This declaration of living
A promise of hearts
A song to sing out loud

I Am
Today, Forever
Reborn]]> sentient02970 Writing Tue, 09 Nov 2010 10:39:15 -0800 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1170085#msg-1170085 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1170085#msg-1170085
Time can't allow
The patience for mortality
The works of man
The glories of nature

An all-expanding universe
In perpetuity contracted
The life of the sun
A return of the millennial comet

It won't wait

My remaining sunsets and sunrises
May count in the thousands more
But after the planet will continue to swing
Around the vacuum of the expanse

I won't know

Peaks of civilizations
Rise and fall
The shifting plates
Of nations and places

Sleeping

The brevity of lifetime
Hands taken by angels
Sweeping vista of seconds
Unfurling the absent future

I recognize in moments

A void of storytelling
Gaps in shared experience
Kings and queens,
Gods and Mortals

A passing tide

The revolution of spheres
My kingdom come undone
I'll imagine it all ahead of us
The tree and not the forest

A single step

For now I'll stop reflecting
On this silent subject
And continue about THIS day
A consideration of now

A red light changes
I press the accelerator]]> sentient02970 Writing Fri, 05 Nov 2010 12:59:30 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1158332#msg-1158332 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1158332#msg-1158332
Aerial view
Breaking news
Event-driven
Instant access

Front row seat
To the carnage carnival
Dark stain
This unhappy lot

I recognize the same
In cauldrons of anxiety
A rising mercury level
In the tube of fragile being

Below my motivations
Lies a semblance of sorrow
Seeping from the bladders
Of calm, rational Living

I crawl across this page
Of temporary thinking
A collection of terms
Soon forgotten by next page click

As a towel hits the floor
Stepped in mud markings
Of boot steps forward into
The failures of tomorrow]]> sentient02970 Writing Tue, 12 Oct 2010 11:30:10 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1151722#msg-1151722 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1151722#msg-1151722 don't know why, but it made me think of the holocaust]]> arwencat8 Writing Sat, 25 Sep 2010 07:25:13 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1151326#msg-1151326 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1151326#msg-1151326

Ablation

Ushered to the chaos
Herded to the burning barn
The sticks and stones
The dogs and darkness

Weeping and praying
The stripes of sorrow
Shambling cloud of slow
Skeletal parade of hated

Shouts of steel uniform
Segregation
Hair scarves to shaved heads
Luggage piles

These innocent
torn
ripped
erased people.

The ritualistic removal
of a fiber
from the quilt of culture
The exhaust of brick buildings

And so..

Tears of the writings
The agony of memory
The numerical markings of
forearms

I have no other words
Or feeling
Or image
To suggest and convey

This loss]]> sentient02970 Writing Fri, 24 Sep 2010 12:36:21 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1144557#msg-1144557 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1144557#msg-1144557 Suge Writing Thu, 09 Sep 2010 14:46:17 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1144526#msg-1144526 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1144526#msg-1144526

In the clean cold etchings
on granite
The rough inside the shiny smooth
The single word to share

Remembered

Name and date
A marking of the buried
A body without life
A world without one

Remembered

The claw marks on
death camp walls
The shadows burned in
Hiroshima stone

Remembered

The poppies blooming
in Flanders Field
The helmet half buried
in French beach sand

Remembered

The golden hair left in the brush
you left behind.
The wallet that holds
your smiling portrait photo

I will remember]]> sentient02970 Writing Thu, 09 Sep 2010 12:37:24 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1144102#msg-1144102 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1144102#msg-1144102

Alighieri Avenue

Nine boxy capes
Nine gates of white picket
Nine green squares
All in a row

The shining path
Of tranquil peace, harmony
Here wipes itself
Into the dirt of these nine mats

This small circular way
The cul de sac insane
Walk with me to see
The bold and profane

Mailbox One
Is devoid of walls inside
To allow for the blind wanderings
Of the directionless and doubting

Doorknock Two
Smells of the hot steam of
Beds afire in thick shame
A stained silk of sorrow

Welcome Mat Three
Rotting of food spillage
A kitchen table of froth
Pouring vomitous hate

Jockey Fountain Four
Contain the closets a-full
Silver and gold drowning
The skeletal grip of coin

Rocking Chair Porch Five
Cacophony of shouting
Intent on the infinite
Fuel of fire in fists and fighting

Pole Lamp Six
Confused array of paintings
Candles lit in shrine
Of faces twisted, torn

Screen Door Seven
Blood strewn walls
With flesh clinging
A fury of blades begotten hate

Wind Chime Eight
Strobe light of televisions
Wall to wall
Eternally set to advertising all

Awning Nine
Bedrooms hiding secret bedrooms
Trunks with single locks within locks
Hidden guilt walled within

As we turn our back on
The sidewalks that parade by
We soon forget the horror
Of the nine entombed within

On this, a perfect blue sky
Day]]> sentient02970 Writing Wed, 08 Sep 2010 12:03:12 -0700 http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1141367#msg-1141367 Re: A Little Black Book http://forum.nin.com/bb/read.php?35,559458,1141367#msg-1141367 what ever you have to do to finish is the main thing
i like it :)]]> arwencat8 Writing Thu, 02 Sep 2010 12:29:58 -0700