Rules of friendship

Rules of friendship

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11/30/10 3:30 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Really? Well, fuck!
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11/30/10 4:08 PM
qe76 member Chris ~N~ Elizabeth Joined: 11/06/08 Location: My heart is in Scotland Posts: 2,368	damn it- Sounded like it was gonna be an interesting poem / thread lol hope thers more to come.!
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11/30/10 5:07 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	(Note; this's not a reply to any recent postings or anything. Just general feelings & observations on friendship.) What was once a beautiful safe place of understanding, mutual affection now mind-field of don't think this don't feel that. I've never had a problem w/limitations on the physical as was happy w/that aspect of things anyhow. Sitting together & such just a nice & warm feel of this is right an image of 'home' become reality in the world. All these pre-emptive strikes of 'platonic' were un-necessary mate. We'd already sorted bounds & bounderys. Just leaves me wondering how something so good could leave either of us wanting to say no more
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11/30/10 10:09 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Bub; just in case you end up seeing this...I'm just having a bit of a rave, like we talked about on saturday, no need to worry, I know yr circumstance quite complicated in regard to relationships in general & yr no doubt just dealing w/that in solitude as is your way of late. I'd usually just talk...latest arrangement precludes contact-that's just the way in time, moment by moment Even if all said & all done in past now gone I've positive feelings (with distance) for you- gratitude for our friendship close in words of truth I'm hoping your dreams will soon be your ongoing reality.
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11/30/10 10:15 PM
qe76 member Chris ~N~ Elizabeth Joined: 11/06/08 Location: My heart is in Scotland Posts: 2,368	that was sweet Is this a thread we can all comment in ?
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11/30/10 10:42 PM
flamenwerfer member Joined: 03/06/09 Posts: 1,360	^ sure it's quite alright thanks Mattieu, appreciate your friendship.
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11/30/10 11:50 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Thanks. Yep, all welcome :-)
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12/01/10 4:27 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Talking relaxed laying -floor's as good a space as any- comfortable with each other (such a rare construct for me) was interesting to see you back in the way we have been being openly yourself then realiseing- whether conscious or a new auto-tuning- & stepping back your shutters close creating sudden distance cold... & I'm thinking well, ok then.
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12/03/10 6:33 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Really good connection vibes these past 5 days. Beautiful warmth centreonoutward energycolours zipp spinal electric uponward & go. I just appreciate for itself...(have been known to read into this stuff)....tis enough to be feeling so good. I loop it on back to an extent .cos who would.nt enjoy such a buzz. :-)
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12/03/10 6:50 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	I long to see talk just be, with my friend busy on her own happy trips though cool with distance latest is difficult for me she means alot maybe too much & that is quite possibly the whole issue -wouldn't go so far as call a problem .cos I don't believe it to be one- that's the way I see though I know problems with others can colour perception of most anyone So; agree to giving of space though really only way for more space would be dropping from the world of men once again and obviously I haven't have I
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12/04/10 5:25 AM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Crows on the highway watching waiting in silence don't get lonely now there's time enough and all's clear ahead
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12/05/10 11:28 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	(for the ex :-) The kids're kids no longer in fact older now than we once were- So, fucking forget it works no more & never again old guilt keep it...it's yours anyhow get a fucking hobby or anything that'll keep you swimming away & out..out..keep on going til waters cold deep in unforgiving say be still
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12/06/10 1:26 AM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	(Some old stuff- 6months or so ago) New Moon; A time to shape yr dreamshopes to human form decisive strokes gentle breaths of life from the ash of bygone days *** Direction; Slowly now...tread light each step a monument time slows...easy now take a breath in out now.. ...careful ...move all time in which to navigate each footprint lighting the path and remaining in testament worlds are mapped in just this way
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12/06/10 11:36 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	' Sh^eol ' ***** ~thanks for honesty appreciate truth as you know~ Edited 2 time(s). Last edit at 12/07/2010 11:41PM by Mattieu.
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12/07/10 4:42 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Distance & space distance in space- time zones're difficult(good friend once told me: zones're proof that time doesn't actually exist) & who's talkative at 6am anyhow..so, putting effort in & why not, whos to say all & everything I am feeling it's a good clear morning this day
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12/07/10 4:46 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Agree there's something gained posting thoughts on this site. Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 12/07/2010 11:33PM by Mattieu.
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12/07/10 6:48 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Your either mis-overstanding where I'm coming from or the ref. to 'guys not getting it' means your distancing all your male friends- either way no doubt best I just forget how good our friendship was. I will say this though; being friends has got nothing to do with gender. &, after so long, this year's really positive experience of talks, companionship, mutual feelings 'n' overstandings I'm willing to forgive alot, figureing your mayhaps un-aware of how much pain recent actionreactions're causing. I also live alone quite comfortably, friends do not damage this state of being. Anyhow, I remain, as always. Edited 3 time(s). Last edit at 12/08/2010 02:04AM by Mattieu.
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12/08/10 3:59 PM
ghostshot member Joined: 10/28/10 Location: Carbon County Posts: 331	Mattieu posted: Agree there's something gained posting thoughts on this site. This site has a comfortable feel about it,as home.Enjoy reading your works,keep posting.
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12/08/10 5:34 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Thank you :-). Always good to get positive feedback. Some of the posts were written to an old friend of mine(one who told me about this site), others just random wanderings of thought, but all're on here for anyone to read- happy you enjoy.
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12/09/10 1:02 AM
N_ member Je suis perdue! Joined: 11/04/08 Location: The nicest parts of hell. Posts: 510	Mattieu posted: (for the ex :-) The kids're kids no longer in fact older now than we once were- So, fucking forget it works no more & never again old guilt keep it...it's yours anyhow get a fucking hobby or anything that'll keep you swimming away & out..out..keep on going til waters cold deep in unforgiving say be still Wow, I could have written this...wish I did. It is how I feel about right now, but my girls are still young and I'm feeling a bit nostalgic about them getting older....having issues with the ex...I kind of wish he'd wake up and understand they need him. Though, another part of me wants to say, "Keep on swimming" "Til the water's cold and deep" and ... well, anyway. Take care and TY for sharing with us.
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12/09/10 8:43 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Thanks for yr comment. Much appreciated. Kids're in their 20s now. Really wish I could've had more to do with them when they were growing up but wasn't my choice. Anyhow, thanks.
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12/09/10 9:56 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	(For Lil'bub) Enough now I've made myself clear enough I think you can see meanings messages signs in communication as I can see yours viewing as we walked together for a time our paths converged & became more than two singular events magnified intense cool fire through rivers mountains & on moonbright evenings across clear open fields our steps left a single track for a time
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12/11/10 3:25 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	People think perhaps it's a bit of a joke telling them but just truth & visiting friend recently not seen for many years having some problemstress&insomnia perhaps happier for knowing he's really not doing so bad if only by comparison it's quite possible to work on through happy enough just to be here & able still
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12/15/10 11:03 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	THOUGHT I am not here (or there) for games of blaming my feet're bare walking thru flames to cooling stone pure as I want others to be ask of me anything see what happens with these words just falling from mind tripping thru this world just one of so many I have seen truth in so few pure as I wish you to be sure as I am there must be some one
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12/16/10 6:37 PM
anew member Versions of Rilke Joined: 09/27/09 Posts: 1,759	I like this writing as it touches the problem of blame *
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12/16/10 11:18 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Thanks. It's very easy to blame, when things go south, though always in mind; there's many sides & others're often seeing things very differently.
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12/17/10 9:31 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Didn't intend to write anything other than first few posts here but enjoying having somewhere to write, it's rather awesome to be putting these straight out into the world, get feedback, read posts of others etc. I very rarely re-write or edit, just put my thoughts straight down & leave as is, so a rather messy naive style. (Just in case) All writings property of the author: Mattieu Postma(aka MacRoth). I never used to worry about that kind of thing, copyrights, but there's still melodys I wrote/co-wrote being sold, downloaded etc w/out acknowledgement. Rather annoying. Oh well. Thanks heaps everyone who's taken time to read :-)
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12/24/10 6:32 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Knowing why yet not what to do nothing well, that just feels wrongly negative anon-solution needing answers wanting everything yet demanding of none. If this riddle contains answers I will insearching; find time in our time & say here for all clearwonder crystaljoy, the meresight will be celebration enough So, with hope I search on
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12/26/10 11:11 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	From here where? and if not this then what? The only choice, the only direction forward progression- this much I know it's time now go
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12/28/10 7:35 PM
Mattieu member Joined: 11/01/10 Location: Victoria%2C Australia Posts: 73	Finaly feeling a bit better; positive again. Certain decisions needed to be made. Fates can be changed & roads re-directed detours're often the best way; for all the twisting n turning, jumping through hoops n returning all this time for learning impact-digesting memory expanding the future now & all so much clearer than the 'would've-could've-should've' of the road straight thru narrowing fast, heading east thru shimmering heat waves the distortions illusion; the way is clear
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