Automatic Marionette

He is so hollow within himself
He knows only that inside there lies a shelter; in the empty space
Familiar refuge; a comforting place to hide
Protection from wickedness he faces; the world that he finds

And he will take his time before emerging; once again
His former forgotten lover
Drilled a hole straight into and through his head
All of the fond memories of his unsubsisted love, accumulated
Escaped into the air; scattered and disbursed within the atmosphere
He does not realize that they were ever there
Only knowing all to well the hollowness, his companion
Always here

At first she was mechanical
She did not heal, she did not feel
Her self-medication controlled her heart
And numbed her mind and soul again

Now as the time it passes over her
She cannot be; cannot bear what she has chosen to become
An automatic marionette, strung along
She did not want to praise herself as a fool again
Though a fool is what she's become; she knows

And now the world has become a catacomb
An endless maze trapped away, far from the truth
And all along its wreaking corridors lie the corpses of decaying rotting trust
Fate seeps in swiftly and seals the tomb while they are lost within
Inescapable, their timeless tragedy is reborn again

Killing the Murdering Face of Love

You’re killing the face
Of the one that’s inside of me
Ya, you’re drowning the fate
Of who I used to be
And you’re using up
All of my insides
There’s not a thing left
That I have to hide

Killer, my death face is what you wanted to see
Murderer, this is all that is left of me
Killer, this death mask leaves nothing to hide
Strange love, eat me from the inside

I know you wanted
Us to be so much more
But you changed your mind
And left me with this whore
All bruised and broken
You cut yourself up
There’s nothing that’s left
So I gave up

Killer, killing the you that I knew
Murderer, you used up what’s left of you
Killer, destruction is all that you had left to choose
Strange love, there’s nothing left that you had to lose

Once a thing is broken
It cannot be mended again
All the things that we feel
We’ll never know them again
The time now is wasted
That was spent
This new found hatred
What was originally meant

Stab yourself, wide open
The scabs have become
Cracked and broken
All that we were
Is never coming back again
Loss is forever
Forever and ever, amen

Killer, what have you done with me
Murderer, I’ve lost the will to be
Killer, I’m left scared and broken now
Strange love, hang me like Jesus from my bowl
From my bowels

The vows that we said
The promises that we meant
The things that we wrote
In the dried cement
Are torn away
In this dark storm
Covered and buried
Ripped and raped and torn

I Kill Myself While I'm Fucking You

As real as it becomes; it's inside of me
As loud as it whispers; it's a part of me
And it screams, "put a put a gun to your head"
Now and forever I chose to live

The trigger is easy to squeeze, yeah
A thirty-three cent solution for life, yeah
Fuck all the love that I wanted to have
My youth has left me eternally brain dead

Myself, and me, are now becoming
The rotting and the dying
The addled and denying

Myself and me
We are the everything
We are absolutely not a thing
Abuse to us doesn't mean anything
We'll kill ourselves and it doesn't mean anything

The feeling inside, it's consuming
The who that I am, I forgot what it means
The flavor of drugs, what does it mean?
The who I am forever does not mean a fucking thing

You are, for life, a part of me....
My blood
It drips purple and blue and red
Inside of my bed
Inside of you, my death
It does not mean anything
My heart stops when you're pristine
My death does not mean anything

My breathing it stops
When I'm behind you
My heart ceases to beat
When I'm inside of you
You feel my pulse come to a stop
But you don't care
You only love the width of my cock

For us, for you, it means everything
The diameter that I can sustain
You; only loved, how I feel in you
How I feel inside of you
The only thing that I can do
Is kill myself while I'm fucking you

Gato_Preto posted:

zadoc posted:

A new sun has risen on an era of trust
Until the end of life, until the end of time
United we are, while nations turn to dust

Time passes; the tides swell then subside
The Earth turns; sunlight dims, then it dies
Stars appear, only to fade away
Clouds change shape then gently they drift away

A smile is brighter than a thousand, thousand tiny points of light
Eyes that are wider than the greatest of empires at its height

The Planets dance their eternal ballet across the heavens
Centuries pass; moments perish as days and years fade away
Your kindness fills my heart, fills the sky
Unlike history, what we have, love we share, will never die

Thanks for sharing your writtings. They are very good. I really enjoyed this verses here very much. You should create a melody for this poem.

Thanks much to you as well. Ya, I was recording it in MAGIX, but she left me and I really have no desire to finish the project. There is another I am working on.

Perforation

What has my life become?
Through the changing light of the setting sun
What have I done?

It used to mean everything to me
What we used to be
The way it felt inside of me

Yellow, her hair gleaming
Painted lips are beaming
The sound of hopeless crying
A savior painfully dying

Hollow and yet still
Endless trenches of emptiness fill
The void of nothing spills

Normal is numbness
Loss is a feeling that is never missed
Like that very first kiss

Red stains, they’re flowing
The blackness is growing
Her eyes still showing
A life worth knowing

What has her life become?
Punctuated by a loaded gun
What have we done?

Please Kill Me By Stabbing A Corkscrew Through My Heart

I hate my
I hate my
Life and I want to
I want to die

This is an
An ending
Of everything
I thought true to be

I want to
I want to
Stop living
Can't live without you

I am be
Becoming
Just nothing
I'm nothing without you

In this life
You are my wife
And I can't live
Live without you

I am too
Too broken
Too broken
To live without you

I hate my
I hate my
I hate my life and I
I want to die

To live with
Without you
Is too painful
I want it all to end

Let them find me
With love notes to you beside me
You're the reason
Why I had to die

Without you
There is sadness
And in it
Total madness

I hate my
I hate my
I hate my life and I
I want to die

No existence
Within this
This pain I
Pain I can't describe

I don't want to
Want to feel
I don't want to feel
Feel a life without you

Please, please kill me
Don't leave me
Just kill me
Kiss me
Fuck me
Say you love me
Then take my life from me

Pretty, pretty please
Kill me down on my knees
While I beg you
Love me darling please



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zadoc posted:

With Arms And Eyes

With arms around my love
I know
I know
What I have to give

Drinking in her voice endlessly
Flying on her breath with the sharpest of wings
Living in a world of impossible dreams

Looking at my love
I see
I see
A wide open sea

Sailing on an ocean of her skin
Drowning in a myriad of whispering thoughts
Going blind staring at incandescent sunspots

With arms around my love
I am
Iam
Someone else

Killing away all who we used to be
Rising from the ashes, rising from the past
Leaving behind the exceptionable broken cast

I really enjoyed the rhythm of this one ! Well done !

Betray My Thoughts

Soft lips
Hers, mine
I want
to feel devine

I want to betray my thoughts
to betray my thoughts
in you

She knows
all to know
Naked
I am exposed

Everything
Absoultely everything
revealed

Stained glass
her eyes
They see
right into mine

I melt away
I just fade away
Into her

The emptiness
that follows
in her footsteps
It does bind her
it binds her
in her misteps

I want to follow her
to follow her
right on through

Because you bring me down
but I lift you back up too

And if you follow me
I said to follow me
When you just follow me
It's me, it's you
down here we are two

The Cost of Desire is Our Flesh

I’m asking too much, aren’t I?
The well that fills its way up to the sky
Filled with everything that I want to know
Burying the seeds that I want to grow

Blurring my vision I do not see with my eyes
I know I want to but I cannot say my goodbyes
Stuck in the middle between two floors unable to move
Here with you

Take the gasoline and drown my ears to the ground
Strike the match and burn what’s left of this ghost down
Rub the ashes all over your face
Never forget why you cannot leave this place

Fall in the water but you will not get away
You wash and you scrub until the skin tears away
The bone and the muscle is all that’s left to see
Try to escape but you’re stuck here with me

You asked too much
No will for settling
You paid the cost
With your flesh all melting

O Cecelia

O Cecelia,
We dreamed a dream we never knew
We dreamed a dream and it was of you
Of the sparkle in your eyes
And of your coos
Of singing lullibies

O Cecelia,
You were the product of our love's desire
A fission driven furance of fire
A permanent bond of trust
Of her, of you, of me, of us

O Cecelia,
Our hearts were one and then became two
You were lost in what was new
We dreamed a dream we never knew
And it was you



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The Memoirs of a Very Young Suicide Victim

Take a look at your life
Take in a breath
Stare yourself in the mirror
Without seeing death

Your family who loves you
Your friends, friends who'll always be there
Just one phone call
Then a short ride from there

You molded a mask
To mask the truth
We've always been by your side
Despair or dispute

It's not true
What they said about you
It's not you
Never more a man has been

Maybe blinded to see
But we need you
As I'll always need me

What you've known
Who you are
Lost in despair
A never ending nightmare
The terrible pain
Enough to make you give your gain

What must have went wrong
To make this, this your last song
The only time you were wrong
As always we cherish and defend your name
At only ourselves do we have to point the finger of blame

How selfish can one man be?
One hell of a time you've chosen
To engage in the ultimate Ayn Rand activity
I miss you, Daddy

Love That Brings The End

You just called me your husband
I wish you still wanted me to be
It reminds me of a time when
There was only you and only me
And fuck the world
We’d watch it burn
As we set it on fire
But now you’re gone
My wife you no longer want to be
And soon my body will be dust
Please just be happy for me
An ending to my pain
That I suffer every night and day
Yes, yes, yes, baby, yes
I am finally going to be okay