aphrodaisy
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i will never be he same
Joined: 12/07/08
Location: lurking in the shadows
Posts: 269
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A New World Order
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I shudder
At the sound of their footsteps
My heart quickens
And my mind dims
In near recollection
Of some words you said to me once
I'd rather go out on my feet
You promised you'd kill me
But faltered at the moment of truth
And now I lay down
A broken spirit
Waiting to rise
I shall have my revenge
In this life or next
It seemed so many eons ago
That we tossed and turned
And held each other
In rage and in passion
You kissed me
Right behind my ear
And you whispered your undying love
The love that held me prisoner
In the shadow of your fear
I said I would not go quietly
And yet I've been silenced
By all the years of scraping by
Beaten to a pulp
Callus on my knees
Darkened eyes that plead
Where are you now
And would you recognize
The light that shone so brightly once
I never did see it
Ever, not even once
Where are you now
With your empty promises?
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Devoid (work in progress)
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Devoid of passion, devoid of pain
The constant silence drives me insane
Devoid of sadness, devoid of grief
I sold myself and donned your beliefs
Devoid of consciousness, devoid of shame
I am left here without a name
Devoid of feeling, devoid of strife
I search for meaning in my life
How can this be when you were here
I was stricken and paralyzed by fear
And now that you're gone I just can't feel
And everything around me seems surreal
I want to rip open my chest and tear out my heart
To feel anything at all; anything at all I've been numb since we've been apart
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