finding myself again

finding myself again

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02/07/09 5:05 PM
lucreziag member civilised syllabub Joined: 12/18/07 Location: NYC Posts: 1,569	aphrodaisy posted: Horns Without a Halo ******************** I'm quick and I'm cunning You'll never ever catch me I'm innocent, you think But you'll never ever tame me I'm the devil on your shoulder I'm the trick stuck up your sleeve I'm a shadow apparition Keeping you in a ease The greatest trick the devil pulled Was to make the world believe His existent was a figment Of an imaginary sneeze I'm cold and I'm heartless I'll stomp you into the ground But before you can put a finger on it I disappear without a trace or sound They say to keep your friends close And your enemies under a closer eye I'll rip you off, you'll beg for more You can never say goodbye Some angels have wings Some roses do survive the snow But don't let these looks deceive I've got horns without a halo This is very intriguing
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02/07/09 10:55 PM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	Breathe Seethe Hate Berate Lust Lack of trust
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02/09/09 1:44 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	Broken Promise ************ I'm glad you lied When you promised to leave Because somewhere inside You still believed All the words said in rage Were not meant to stab Slowly I healed Pick off the scab And where was I For so long a time You found me in pieces You made me mine A symbol of hope This beacon of light Where I was wrong You set things right Broken and bruised Battered and sore Because of you I hurt no more <3
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02/09/09 9:04 AM
arwencat8 member Joined: 10/15/08 Location: idaho Posts: 2,159	aphrodaisy posted: You made me mine I think this is an interesting concept. We actually create ourselves but the influence of others on us shapes our belief system.
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02/09/09 9:52 PM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	^ever find yourself doing things for everyone else around you "because that's the way you were brought up"? well, that mold is hard to break.
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02/10/09 2:07 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	Irreversible Damage *************** Gutted like a pig Heart snapped like a twig Should have know better Than to have let you in Tore it all apart Lost right from the start you knew how to fake it Stole a part of me Not as sad as I'd have thought The stink of filth and rot Permeates my skin Nothing can help me now Dive deep inside of hate Open up the gates Let the demons through And let them do their deed
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02/17/09 2:13 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	All but forgotten ************ If you must leave then go I will not try to stop you I tried but it wasn't enough I let myself falter If you have an answer I still do not know the question Lightyears ahead of me I really let you down Sink sink sink Deep inside Sink sink sink Cannot bear to see Sink sink sink Wait to die You've lost your hold on me
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02/24/09 6:49 PM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	Alone ***** Here I stand watching Waiting for the crowd to clear No one even stops Or acknowledges I am here The whirl wind blows Wish it would take me away But I stand watching Here is where I'm doomed to stay Perhaps all the faces Smiling laughing joking Are like my bruise That I keep on poking The wretched pain Reminds me I'm still here Running away Doesn't change what I fear Surrounded by you And always so alone The coldness creeps Attacks deep inside my bones Hollowed out Insides rotten sludge Can't let go I still hold a grudge
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02/24/09 6:55 PM
qe76 member Chris ~N~ Elizabeth Joined: 11/06/08 Location: My heart is in Scotland Posts: 2,368	good stuff
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02/24/09 7:03 PM
chrisgonzo member demand the impossible Joined: 08/05/08 Location: Florida Posts: 2,792	aphrodaisy posted: Alone ***** Here I stand watching Waiting for the crowd to clear No one even stops Or acknowledges I am here The whirl wind blows Wish it would take me away But I stand watching Here is where I'm doomed to stay Perhaps all the faces Smiling laughing joking Are like my bruise That I keep on poking The wretched pain Reminds me I'm still here Running away Doesn't change what I fear Surrounded by you And always so alone The coldness creeps Attacks deep inside my bones Hollowed out Insides rotten sludge Can't let go I still hold a grudge I like that.
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02/25/09 6:45 PM
arwencat8 member Joined: 10/15/08 Location: idaho Posts: 2,159	Perhaps all the faces Smiling laughing joking Are like my bruise That I keep on poking This reminds me of the over exaggerated clown faces that people wear when congregated in insincerity. It's like you notice this and being around them is like agitating a wound as you listen to the roar of their pitiful accomplishments.
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02/25/09 11:09 PM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	Interesting interpretation, I don't usually know exactly what I mean when I write the verses, but reading your interpretation and comments forces me to reflect deeper. I think maybe replace "accomplishment" with "compliments" and maybe that's what I was getting at. goes off to ponder
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02/26/09 6:52 AM
mka12992 member i wont let you fall apart Joined: 08/05/08 Location: NY Posts: 296	aphrodaisy posted: Alone ***** Here I stand watching Waiting for the crowd to clear No one even stops Or acknowledges I am here The whirl wind blows Wish it would take me away But I stand watching Here is where I'm doomed to stay Perhaps all the faces Smiling laughing joking Are like my bruise That I keep on poking The wretched pain Reminds me I'm still here Running away Doesn't change what I fear Surrounded by you And always so alone The coldness creeps Attacks deep inside my bones Hollowed out Insides rotten sludge Can't let go I still hold a grudge This is my favorite of them all. This is how I feel most of the time. Keep writing, because you're great and I haven't seen anything I don't like! If you find the time would you mind commenting on my lyrics? I would like some feedback on my latest piece.
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03/01/09 4:34 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	Crushed ****** What is the sound Of reaching into my chest Gripping the rhythmic pounding Silencing the life pumping Stillness of my heart Snuffing out the dreams Each whisper of hope Caught in chains And drowned in despair Does it sound like The vast emptiness of space The eternal cold abyss The dark soul-less stare Gazing at you now?
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03/02/09 11:39 PM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	Euphemism ******* Calm sitting quiet Observing the past From a rear view mirror This part won't last Or so I'm told Another uneventful day Concludes upon itself I choose isolation Cast upon myself It's better this way Barely a whisper Escapes my lips My shining marquee The moon does eclipse Importance forgotten Dive in the void Of darkened eternity My smirk betrays Feigned insincerity My smile dazzles you Reflecting my youth The dreams I have dreamt Promises broken Secrets I've kept Shall die with me
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03/03/09 10:00 AM
arwencat8 member Joined: 10/15/08 Location: idaho Posts: 2,159	Euphemism This feels as if you're waiting for something.
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03/07/09 3:11 PM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	^i don't know i don't know anymore.
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03/07/09 3:12 PM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	is that weird that i don't remember what i wrote about?
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03/07/09 6:16 PM
sui member Joined: 09/06/08 Location: the nether_lands Posts: 1,676	nope, it is called unconscious you write about something to get it out and work on it while not stuck in the conscious it will come to you when you have sorted it out in dream time.
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03/10/09 2:59 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	Deeply Wounded ********* Living a lie Try to get by It's not working The look on my face Frozen in place It's killing me All I can do Live up to you Impossible feat Raise the bar Lower expectations I stopped trying
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03/10/09 3:00 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	sui posted: nope, it is called unconscious you write about something to get it out and work on it while not stuck in the conscious it will come to you when you have sorted it out in dream time. i was singing a song i made up in my dream the other night. too bad i don't remember the lyrics or the melody. all i remember was it was some cool shit!
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03/10/09 3:10 AM
chrisgonzo member demand the impossible Joined: 08/05/08 Location: Florida Posts: 2,792	Deeply Wounded. I like Nice piece.
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03/12/09 11:39 PM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	Thanks Chris. And ...gnosis huh? As in Samael Aun Weor?
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04/04/09 2:21 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	whoa, it's been ages since i've posted something. searches thru phone for one to post scroll scroll scroll . . . Silent No Longer: Where do you come from and where do you go? Why do you stalk me I'd like to know Filled up my heart with hatred and grief I stumble along seeking relief The days, the hours, the seconds tick by I've surrendered to these tears that I cry Overtaken completely- ambushed at best tossing and turning in sleepless "rest" the weights placed upon me are taking their toll I scream out in silence I fight for control the wounds you've inflicted seep deep dark red Silent no longer I'd rather be dead. Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 04/04/2009 02:25AM by aphrodaisy.
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04/05/09 10:26 PM
Kiyo member Maker of Your Destiny Joined: 01/21/09 Location: Whitecourt%2C Ab. Posts: 1,355	aphrodaisy posted: is that weird that i don't remember what i wrote about? No
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04/06/09 10:45 AM
Suge member Turbo Cunt Joined: 11/26/07 Location: The Rezervation Posts: 41,156	Kiyo posted: aphrodaisy posted: is that weird that i don't remember what i wrote about? No I agree. I don't remember half the shit I write about.
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04/06/09 10:46 AM
Suge member Turbo Cunt Joined: 11/26/07 Location: The Rezervation Posts: 41,156	aphrodaisy posted: whoa, it's been ages since i've posted something. searches thru phone for one to post scroll scroll scroll . . . Silent No Longer: Where do you come from and where do you go? Why do you stalk me I'd like to know Filled up my heart with hatred and grief I stumble along seeking relief The days, the hours, the seconds tick by I've surrendered to these tears that I cry Overtaken completely- ambushed at best tossing and turning in sleepless "rest" the weights placed upon me are taking their toll I scream out in silence I fight for control the wounds you've inflicted seep deep dark red Silent no longer I'd rather be dead. Haven't read ya in a while. Good words here. I loved it!
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04/22/09 12:19 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	And Closer... (For someone special) So close yet still apart Curse the want within my heart Taunting gaze ignites a flame Purse my lips whisper your name Locked alone inside my hell Without hope I might as well Relish in this delicious burn Over-eager heart still yearns A torrent of anguish swept me away The slightest whisper my thoughts betray I spun in circles doubt what is true Let slip my tongue and I was through Who are you and who am I? Caught within a web of lies Nowhere is a safe retreat ...Until your eyes and mine did meet
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04/22/09 12:20 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	The Wicked Cleanse these stains within my soul Only you can take control Of my madness seething rage Ignite the flame and turn the page Hollowed heart wicked dream Things are never as they seem Look about me in despair Some things are way beyond repair Touched your finger to my lips How your shadow doth eclipse Was a beacon out of sight I was blinded by your light The world utters another curse I've prepared myself for worse
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04/22/09 12:22 AM
aphrodaisy member i will never be he same Joined: 12/07/08 Location: lurking in the shadows Posts: 269	I'm torn between what feels good and what IS good.
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