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02/01/09 8:53 PM

‘Fire In My Eyes’

You should sit up and take notice
I’m back and better than ever
And you should also listen to some advice
Because I’m not telling you again

You can see the fire in my eyes
But don’t stare for too long
This fire burns brightly all the time
In your eyes I see nothing

If you stare at me, you’ll turn to stone
Just leave me by myself
As I’ll also leave you alone
I can tell you all about loneliness

You should sit up and take notice
I’m back and better than ever
You should also listen to some advice
Because I’m not telling you again


5th October 2006

 

02/01/09 8:55 PM

Oh shit, I started a new page!

We are now on page 3 of this Forum! I can't believe it...

 

02/01/09 8:58 PM

‘The Cancer’

I think of how many times you hurt me
I guess I lost count
And believe me I tried

I think I’ve lost the plot
Along with everything I’ve got
And when I close my eyes
I still see you and your filthy lies

I gave up all that I had
Just for your little game
And now I have nothing

I was always in so much agony
I would love to see you in pain
Then you would know how I felt

I think I’ve lost the plot
Along with everything I’ve got
And when I close my eyes
I still see your filthy lies

You thought I would die for you
But here I am
Now will you die for me?

You wanted me dead
You loved my suicidal thoughts
Now I’m bringing you down

I think I’ve lost the plot
Along with everything I’ve got
When I close my eyes
I still see your filthy lies

I tried to tell you I was ill
But you never listened
Now you’re getting my disease

I hope the cancer consumes you
Like it consumed me
I hope it takes over

There is no cure
I hope you rot in its prison
Just like I did

I think I’ve lost the plot
Along with everything I’ve got
When I close my eyes
I still see those filthy lies

The cancer will never give up
It will leave you vulnerable and weak
Don’t try to put up a fight

It’s never-ending
I’ll watch you crumble
It will eat you alive

The cancer tortured me
Now it’s your turn


22nd July 2007. This one goes with ‘The Illness’, and it’s one of the longest (if not the longest) poem/song I’ve written.

 

02/01/09 8:59 PM

‘Why’

Why do I exist?
Why am I here?
Why am I so sick?
What is my problem?

What did you do to me?
Why am I your slave?
Why am I in so much agony?
Why do I even bother?

Cut me into a million pieces
Take my life away
Hang me from the rope of insecurity
Rip out my heart, my soul
Burn out my eyes
Peel off my skin
Crush all my bones
And go get your next slave

Why am I trapped in this prison?
Why am I in this cage?
What drug did you put me on?
Why do I feel so much pain?

Why am I locked in these chains?
Why do I have these scars?
Why am I covered in these stains?
Why do you have so much control?

Why did I deserve this?
Why am I so full of shit?


27th September 2007

 

02/01/09 9:03 PM

‘Eternity In The Ether’

Only he whom I favour the most
(let’s not brag and boast)
Shall have my tears raining on him
and while the lights are dim
he will have honour in his name
(let’s not forget about shame)
He will be my best friend
(right to the very end)
But in my mind’s eye
(one can’t help but try)
he will live on and on
he will never be gone
And we will live together
live on in the ether
He will always be mine
And it will be our time to shine


11th May 2005. I looked at this one the other day and thought it was slightly humourous. I don't think, when I wrote it, that I wanted it to be funny. Oh well...

 

02/01/09 9:08 PM

‘Soundtrack Of My Life’

I’ve got a double-bladed knife
I’ve got an echoing in my head
This is the soundtrack of my life
I have monsters under my bed

How I can get through the pain
Is easy for you to explain
How I get through the day
Is easy for you to say

When can I stop the crying
Without so much lying?

You are right, you know
You know which way to go

This is the soundtrack of my life
And you might have a wife
But I have no one
So my work here is done
It’s for all of you to see
The poor and the plenty

Mind you, not everyone is as friendly
As they seem
Meanwhile, my life is falling apart
At the seams

As you play your little games
And think of names
For your kids
And place your useless bids
Please think of me
Because one day you might be happy
With you job, your wife
And remember the soundtrack to my life


9th March 2006

 

02/01/09 9:11 PM

Amazing work as ever smiling smiley ‘Why’ really struck a cord with me.

 

02/01/09 9:24 PM

Joan Cootes posted:
torturedpoet posted:
Joan Cootes posted:
More wonderful words from torturedpoet. She is very thought-provoking, one can relate to her words. I really don't know what else to say, but I will read her poems several times so that I can remember them and understand them.

I'm thought-provoking? Hmmm... Yeah, you read on!
You keep writing them and I'll keep reading them. You've communicated more to me through your poems than I'm ever able to get out of you face-to-face.

Oh...great!

smiling smiley

edit: I guess I've always been better with words...



Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 02/01/2009 09:24PM by torturedpoet.

 

02/01/09 9:25 PM

qe76 posted:
Amazing work as ever smiling smiley ‘Why’ really struck a cord with me.

Thank you!

 

02/01/09 10:08 PM

Fire in my Eyes and The Cancer are both powerful and well written.thumbs up
I like how intimidating they both are.

 

02/02/09 3:02 AM

torturedpoet posted:
Joan Cootes posted:
torturedpoet posted:
Joan Cootes posted:
More wonderful words from torturedpoet. She is very thought-provoking, one can relate to her words. I really don't know what else to say, but I will read her poems several times so that I can remember them and understand them.

I'm thought-provoking? Hmmm... Yeah, you read on!
You keep writing them and I'll keep reading them. You've communicated more to me through your poems than I'm ever able to get out of you face-to-face.

Oh...great!

smiling smiley

edit: I guess I've always been better with words...
Yes, I think you always have been. I've noticed many times you can't say what you mean, but you can write it.



Edited 1 time(s). Last edit at 02/06/2009 02:32AM by Joan Cootes.

 

02/02/09 9:22 AM

Why? seemed as if it was about how we can get addicted to relationships that only harm us. It was very good.

Soundtrack of my life. Because of the title I could hear the pain of putting all of someone's energy into something that had no reward and that keeps someone desperately trapped. I also found it a creative way of saying how this gets someone into a quicksand rut.

 

02/04/09 12:07 AM

arwencat8 posted:
Why? seemed as if it was about how we can get addicted to relationships that only harm us. It was very good.

Soundtrack of my life. Because of the title I could hear the pain of putting all of someone's energy into something that had no reward and that keeps someone desperately trapped. I also found it a creative way of saying how this gets someone into a quicksand rut.

I like your analysis, arwencat8. I like the perspective that you bring to this forum, as with a few others who posted on here.

 

02/04/09 7:08 AM

You words Flow well, so many are unaprecative of good Flow. I look 4ward to looking!

 

02/05/09 10:34 PM

Kiyo posted:
You words Flow well, so many are unaprecative of good Flow. I look 4ward to looking!

Thank you!

 

02/05/09 10:37 PM

I haven't written anything since 'Eternal Fixation', I seem to be "blocked". Hopefully it will go away soon, so I can continue writing.

 

02/05/09 10:41 PM

humm- how about you pick a topic and we both (or who ever else wants to) write a poem about it?! Just a thought- helps me when I get stuck.. you can't read the others poem until you posts yours..

 

02/05/09 11:24 PM

torturedpoet posted:
‘Wounds’

Monstrous wounds
Here to find me.
They come and go,
Like ghosts,
But never bind me.

These scars
Cause so much pain,
Reducing this tired body
To a wasteland
For the insane.

This agony
Is tearing me apart.
It’s ripping the skin
Until nothing is left
Except a cold heart.

Dead eyes
Behind cold tears.
The pain stabs me
To once again
Disquiet my fear.

Help me
To wrap up the wounds,
Bury the scars,
Until they heal,
And I’ll join you soon.


3rd June 2008

This really speaks to me right now. Do the wounds ever heal?

 

02/07/09 9:35 PM

qe76 posted:
humm- how about you pick a topic and we both (or who ever else wants to) write a poem about it?! Just a thought- helps me when I get stuck.. you can't read the others poem until you posts yours..

Good idea. But I like to do my work on my own, you know?

 

02/07/09 9:38 PM

meimknot posted:
torturedpoet posted:
‘Wounds’

Monstrous wounds
Here to find me.
They come and go,
Like ghosts,
But never bind me.

These scars
Cause so much pain,
Reducing this tired body
To a wasteland
For the insane.

This agony
Is tearing me apart.
It’s ripping the skin
Until nothing is left
Except a cold heart.

Dead eyes
Behind cold tears.
The pain stabs me
To once again
Disquiet my fear.

Help me
To wrap up the wounds,
Bury the scars,
Until they heal,
And I’ll join you soon.


3rd June 2008

This really speaks to me right now. Do the wounds ever heal?

I don't know. Maybe they do, maybe they don't. Maybe the physical (external) wounds heal, but the mental (inner or psycological) wounds stay.

 

02/07/09 9:41 PM

YES! The blockage has cleared! Here is one I wrote after I logged out of nin.com last Friday:

‘The Annulled’

I have a dull ache in my head
While the world learns how to forget me
And as I plunge into the watery depths
I suddenly find myself...
Transfixed
Plummeting from my transient existence
Whilst delving into a state of anathema

I am trapped here in this infinite void
I have failed, now to finally become nothing

And I still feel this aching in my head


6th February 2009

 

02/07/09 9:44 PM

And now back to some "older" ones...


‘Decline & Destruction’

One sometimes wonders what it would be like
Just to end it all
One wonders what it would be like
If one stopped breathing
Or if the heart stopped beating
To drive something sharp through the skin
Through an arm
Through the heart (and just let the blood flow)
To dangle oneself from the ceiling
To go to sleep and never wake up
To leap from a building
And plummet to the ground

To forever be alone
And at peace

Ever had that feeling?

Have you not wondered would that would be like?


10th April 2008

 

02/07/09 9:46 PM

‘The Victim (One Of The Flies)’

There is no place for me here
Why don’t I just disappear?
I need to find myself
To give up to someone else,
But...

My absence is none of your concern
It’ll be my remains you want to disperse
But I won’t be the one you despise
I won’t be one of your flies

I need to flee this barren ground
My time is finally running out
I don’t belong here anymore
And this time I know for sure

My escape is none of your concern
It’s my remains you want to disperse
I won’t be the one you terrorise
I will not be one of the flies
Anymore

I’ll finally break free from the tyranny
I was not made for you to dissect
I’m tearing away from your cruelty
I won’t be the victim of your neglect
Never again

My escape is none of your concern
It’s my remains you want to disperse
I will not be the one you terrorise
I will not be one of the flies
Anymore

My absence is none of your concern
It’ll be my remains you wish to disperse
But I won’t be the one you despise
And I will not be one of the flies

I am not your victim anymore


25th March 2008 - 5th April 2008

 

02/08/09 10:20 PM

‘Sanctity’

What does this mean to me?
My little sanctuary
It made me feel alive
I don’t want to die

This is my sanctity
My sanctuary
You could never steal it from me
Never

You won’t get me this time
It’s not yet my time
Now you’re going down
For pushing me around

This is my sanctity
My sanctuary
You could never steal it from me
Never

Now you won’t rip my skin
Now I will not give in
You won’t cut me open
I am not your experiment

This is my sanctity
My sanctuary
And you could never steal it from me
Never

You can’t take me again
This is not my end


7th December 2007

 

02/08/09 10:22 PM

‘Killer Bite’

You thought we were all the same
You thought we were always to blame
We were seen as being irresponsible
We were constantly being called irrational

You thought that you were right
And that we were wrong
But we had the killer bite
And we were never wrong

We are tired of being abused
You said that we were of no use
It’s time for us to finally fight back
Now you are falling through the gaps

You thought that you were right
And that we were so wrong
But we had that killer bite
And we were never wrong

You thought that you were always right
And that we were always so wrong
But we possessed that killer bite
And we were never wrong


30th September 2006

 

02/09/09 9:00 AM

torturedpoet posted:
I have a dull ache in my head
While the world learns how to forget me


Yet that pain in your head reminds you that you have to tend to yourself even when the world ignores you.

 

02/09/09 4:15 PM

Interesting thought, arwencat8.

 

02/09/09 4:17 PM

‘The Journey’

I have a fever raging
In a society that is ageing
Far too much time is spent
In a society that is bent

We must not hesitate
Leave before it’s too late

Try as you must
You can’t go with only trust
Give yourself a chance
You might find romance

We must not hesitate
Leave before it’s too late

You must not forget
Your life is not over yet
Forget the money you earn
Forget the things you would burn

We must not hesitate
Leave before it’s too late...


26th November 2004

 

02/09/09 4:20 PM

I am so glad that the blockage has cleared. I'm in the middle of writing a new poem, so I'll post it tomorrow.

 

02/09/09 10:04 PM

Okay, I won't post it tomorrow, I'll post it today because I finished it not that long ago.


Here it is:

‘Abyss’

Looking down into a gaping hole
Gazing into the blackened depths
Thinking of a life never had
And a life once lived

As I stare into the abyss
It stares back menacingly
In mockery of myself

The void dares me to look deeper
To move one step closer
I foolishly follow its persuasion
And slip into its gaping mouth

The world slowly fades into black
The mouth closes to shut out all light

And as I fall
I remember how peaceful it is
Down there


10th February 2009

 
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