Please... let this be real. I feel like we click even though we've only spent little time together and I've never met anyone like you before. We seem to have so much in common. Because I don't have much luck in this and because of the fact that I'm different and most people don't seem to want me in that way as they get scared off by my honesty, I'm probably letting the paranoia and cynicism take over. If you didn't get back to me because of real reasons or things are busy at the minute, then I'm all ready to go and see where this takes us. Get ready for one hell of a ride.

But if the usual outcome is what's happening and that you aren't keen on me and are scared by me don't skirt around the issues or try and put me off hoping I'll go away of my own accord. I want fucking answers. No is the best thing you tell me. I've done this before and it's nothing but heartache. Because this doesn't happen to me very often, anytime there is a chance that I can find someone who I can truly love, cherish and be with, I'm going to take it and throw all my hope into it because that's who I am, because I want to make that someone happy in anyway I can. I just never get a chance to do that because people are always looking for the wrong things. If that's the case, just say so. It doesn't matter. I know what's going on and it's okay if you're not wanting to even meet up.

Everything may be fine and it's just my desperation that keeps me waiting by the phone and wondering why you haven't messaged back. If that's the case, then great but if for some reason there is any doubt in your mind, just say so it isn't that difficult.

There's too much dishonesty and shades of grey which can be easily avoided in this world. If there is, let me know. If there isn't, then for the first time in my life I may have found someone who I can truly care about and find happiness with. I know I'm jumping many guns but life's too fucking short.

If I've worried for no reason then fine, I'm good at that, just ignore me and we can have a fucking blast. I hope that's the case because I'll let you know that you don't ever have to be alone either.

With all of this, it'll be worth chasing it.

I am both excited and anxious.

I can't wait for tonight.



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I’ve begun my voyage in a paper boat without a bottom; I will fly to the moon in it. I
have been folded along a crease in time, a weakness in the sheet of life. Now,
you’ve settled on the opposite side of the paper to me; I can see your traces in the
ink that soaks through the fibre, the pulped vegetation. When we become
waterlogged, and the cage disintergrates, we will intermingle. When this paper
aeroplane leaves the cliff edge, and carves parallel vapour trails in the dark, we will
come together.

I really want to talk to you. Things may end or it may be an opportunity for us to start all over again. But first I need to talk to you; I need some explanations. If things don't work out between us, at least I would like us to be friends.

You scare the crap out of me.



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Cold, honey?

I hope your ass cheeks and dick are freezing and fall off in that cold, wet, expensive dump of a condo you are renting. I hope your siberian husky chews them up and then vomits them because she doesn´t deserve such a rotten meal.

It serves you right. That´s how I feel when I´m depressed and rejected: cold, cold, unable to warm up. That´s how your abandonment felt like. An unending, relentless freeze wave.

Remember how you kept getting annoyed by my always wearing hoodies?

This is why. This is how I felt for months.

I know you don´t miss me. Not even as a comforter. My new bed is so good and inviting.