OK, so maybe I will be the biggest loser on the forums, who gives a fuck- I don't really know anyone here anyways, sooooooo........
In May I thought I was seeing NIN for the last time in Vegas. The show was over, I was happy/sad, but "OK" thinking it was the last time to see NIN live. I was OK.
Got home, thought about Toronto. It just didn't seem right to see your favorite band- for the last time- open for someone else...I really couldn't afford to go to Toronto..Then the whole Eric de La Cruz thing.... The kid needed a HEART. Trent was offering wonderful things to help him...I happily donated and went to the show- and left early.
Mind you I LOVE Janes Addiction live, but I wanted to leave the venue with Trent's voice in my head.
When I got back to work , everyone kept asking if I was sad..I said "No, I'm good..."
...
Time went by, I KNEW I would be really sad at the very last show, even though I couldn't attend. I accepted this. When he anounced the last shows, I knew NO WAY could I afford NY or LA, so Chicago...
My friend and I ended up getting tickets for both shows.
OH.
MY.
GOD.
What a perfect way to end such a wonderful time in my life.
I had no idea how sad I would be at the end of the 2nd (fucking amazing) show- but I was still OK.
4 days later, went out with friends, came home, took a shower and realised, I will probably never see them again live, and actually started crying.
Understand that I am 43 years old, loved them since 89, and travelled to Amsterdam, Canada, Vegas, Tampa, Chicago and locally in NY...My vacations the past 5 years have been built around Trent's schedule. My friends and I have built so many wonderful memories around the music...Also have gotten through so verrrry rough , dark moments with Trent's voice/music/lyrics in my head to console me....
To realise that I won't be able to celebrate all this with him in the same room, so he can HEAR how much we *all* appreciate him, really overwhelmed me with sadness....
Has anyone else felt this? What is your story about the end/last shows?

Yes. There is no other band I will ever love this much and be this dedicated to.

I did cry during the show in July, but afterwards I felt... numb. Weird, I know.

Cried?

Jesus.

sourfriday posted:

Cried?

Jesus.

I second that.

RodrigoD posted:

I haven't cried, but I thought this was really sweet:

I was talking to my 7 year old. He digs NIN a lot, has a t-shirt, knows the songs (the ones I think are ok for him to listen to, anyway). I told him how bummed out I was that NIN was wrapping things up as a live band, and that we would probably never be seeing them again (I live in Chile - them ever coming back is more than a long shot). After I whined for a while, my son looks at me and says "but that's ok, man, because we still have their records. so they can play for us whenever we ask them to."

My son rocks hard.

Hey Rod,

That's great! Your big boy sounds just as cool as you.

As for me, I can't cry because I'm still grinning like an idiot from last night's super-freakin'-amazing show! It appears they filmed the whole thing in HD so there will likely be a DVD/Blu-Ray ..... soon.

It is not sad or pathetic to cry for an artist or for a show. I never understood the concept. I understand it a little better now, but not from personal experience.

I flew to FLorida this past Spring Break to see Iron Maiden on their final show of their Somewhere bAck in time Tour. I bought a GA ticket online and booked my hotel/flight. I met up with the fan club the night before the show at some pool hall that catered to us. On my way down to get a cab to this pre show meet up I met a guy from minneapolis in the lobby. WE hung out that night and met tons of other people from all over the world: Finland, UK< Brazil, Australia, and Canada. All these people flew in and met us up. One guy drove from the arctic circle for 12 hours to a u.s. airport. His name is Maiden Manitoba. AT the pre party this guy was buying strangers drinks and being like family with us other fan club members.

The day of the show the guy from the lobby (minneapolis) calls me to tell me someone in the First to the Barrier line has an extra wristband (these are thee 150 wristbands given to lucky winners, and they get to go in 10 minutes into the venue before everyone else). I got to be right on the barrier because of this and who was next to me on the barrier? This fella from canada that drove the 12 hours to an airport. he had bought about 10 shirts for various other fan club members around the world and had them in a bag with him. WEll right before maiden came on, the intro song (before the band takes the stage) starts to play and he starts to tear up/cry and apologizes to me for it.

I tell him not to, and at that moment I understood why people can cry for an artist/show. Its a state of Nirvana I think. An elevated sensation.



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lol



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No, I haven't cried. But if Danny Lohner does end up making an appearance at one of the last shows, I will cry like a baby because I won't be there to see it!

I was about to say that I haven't cried, but I actually did LOL. Not necessarily about NIN "retiring" from live performances, but about some other stuff related to it.

It was right after the Charlotte show June 12. They played "The Fragile," which was a song I had not yet seen live but that meant so much more to me than I can type. To make a long story short, I have a horrible teenage experience (normal, I know) as a result of being kinda chubby (about 40 lbs. overweight maybe) went through a period of health problems brought on by disordered eating and an overwhelmingly harsh workout regimen, thought I might not be able to have kids, then realized I was the one making myself so sick, had to get through it, deal with my demons, address my shitty body image, all with the guidance of the few people who understood me, loved me, accepted me (my husband was my absolute rock during this time)...and I remember the beginning of this not great 10-year period was in '99. Around the same time I heard the Fragile for the first time watching the VMAs. So, to see that song played life and realize that I'm not fucking fragile anymore, that I got through it all, and to see that symbolic chapter close...wow, I'm tearing up thinking about it. And NIN was really a soundtrack to all that disarray in my mind and my life. Being able to carry that music with me through it all and still love what I'm hearing and feel a sense of triumph over those demons and have that chapter closed up for me BY Trent and the guys, there just are not words to tell you how great that felt. So yeah, I've cried. It was worth every. last. tear.



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johnny_ripper posted:

sourfriday posted:

Cried?

Jesus.

I second that.

Third.

I think I'd be a lot more sad if Trent said he was going to give up making music.

I got to see NIN seven times--some of the best shows I've ever been to, some of the best times in my life, in fact.

I think, someday, NIN will tour again. And if they don't...oh well...



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METALSMITH,I know what you mean, but to a whole other degree.Definitely cried. And I know that I will when the last show ends. Reason for this is that I have never gone to a show. I know someone who has gone like 8 times which makes it even harder. It's just that I am still not 18 so I need some form of parent consent to go. I pushed my parents really hard on this like never before. It didn't help that they don't like the band.Never has a fight with my parents like the one I had been so bad.Worse thing is that it looks like I will never EVER go to a live show unless a miracle occurs. So yea I cried, am crying, and will cry.Seven years I've loved this band and just when I tell everyone that I like NIN, NIN waves goodbye. I barely was able to publicly define myself for who I am and not what people expected me to be. I don't want to wave goodbye.

If you think there is anything to cry about concerning NIN,you really have not experienced life yet.

I share a similar sentiment with RunGVegas. If i could dedicate a song to myself it would be "The Fragile". I didn't cry when I heard it, but surprisingly, I cried during "Hurt" at the Phoenix show. I managed to get a spot on the rail right in front of Trent and I just suddenly burst into tear as I sang along. It really caught me off guard.

I agree that the saddest thing about this all is the closing of a chapter...It's change...a need to move on, however unwillfully. I know in my heart that Trent saved my life with his music. NIN was the only real thing I had during the most difficult times of my life (has it really been 20 years?!). Now I'm stronger and I'm alive and in a way, I feel that I owe Trent/NIN my life.

I had a chance to meet him in Mountain View and I was so nervous that I just froze. He smiled and said, "This is your moment. What are you going to say?" and of course, nothing that I had wanted to really say came out. What I should have said was, "Trent, you saved my life. You gave me a reason to live when I felt I had lost everything. THANK YOU for your music. It has meant the world to me..."

But I blew it and said nothing of the sort.

My heart sank when I saw the wave goodbye symbol with the dates 1989-2009. I may or may not cry after the last show.

Whatever happens, I will always be grateful for this gift.

Nothing can stop me now...

Oh man, this thread is like "Revenge of CURTAIN CALL" lolzzz